Sunday, July 18, 2010

Playing Tourist Part I: Firefly (yes) Stoneys (no)

The other night Trish and I were looking for something really tasty to eat that wouldn't be too expensive or have too much food (always an issue when we're eating out) and so she suggested that we go to FireFly. Those of you planning a trip to Vegas need to put this place on your list. There are two locations -- the one we went to was on Paradise over by the Convention Center. The food is billed as "Tapas" which Blake has informed me was "International For Delicious!" and in normal English terms means "Appetizer  Smorgasbord".

Pre-Tapas Bread/Olive Platter (ie, Nom nom nom!!)

This actually ended up being the best food option for a lot of reasons. 1)-- the menu is pretty expansive and includes vegetarian option as well as the best food for meat lovers (ribs, lamb, and chicken in the tapas area, as well as actual 'entree' options that are full meals). The best part was that the appetizers only ran $3-5 each, so your meal is only as expensive as you are hungry. I ordered the gazpacho (which was the most delicious cold soup ever) and a beat/walnut salad. Trish ordered goat cheese wrapped in eggplant and a plate of mushroom tarts. Between that and the bread (and the desert tarts that we ordered) we were not only stuffed but we each only paid about $12. It was delicious AND cost-effective. I'm putting the contact information for the place at the bottom of the blog, please head that direction the next time your in town (nom, nom, nom!!)


Trish at Firefly ("Are you gonna take pictures all night?")

Beyond that I've been spending a lot of time avoiding the 110 degree heat (hello hot gust of air...so we meet again...). Hydration has always been key when I'm back at home, but no matter how much I drink I am never hydrated. Ye-uch.

Trish and I also went to Stoney's Rockin' Country Bar last night. For the record, this is a place that we used to go to all the time when I lived in town. I love line-dancing and they do have one of the largest hardwood dance floors in the city. Unfortunately, the place has gone down-hill since I left. The arcade games we used to play in the back have all been removed and throughout the night, the DJ played 15-30 minute increments of house dancehall music (ie, grinding music as opposed to line dancing or two-stepping music). Now, I'm not opposed to dancehall music in dance clubs; however, when I go to a country dance bar I'm looking for country music, line dancing, and two stepping. The "Whatever" attitude of the ownership to the clientèle that traditionally frequents places like Stoneys (in an effort to win over the 20 something young, obnoxious, oversexed crowd) bothered not only myself but a number of the regulars that I ran into while I was there. I don't know that I'll go back to Stoney's again, but I hope that the folks who normally frequent the higher end ultra-lounges serve the place well. 

Besides that, I just heard that they re-opened Gilley's in the Treasure Island. Gilley's used to be in the New Frontier (before they demolished the place) and was definitely the best country dance club I've ever been in. Small, but always country. Maybe next time I'll try that out instead. 


Taxi. Thought it was hilarious. 


Other than that, just hanging and waiting....Parents should be home tonight. Then starts the family part of this visit. 








FIREFLY* on Paradise
3900 Paradise Road
Las Vegas, NV 89169
702.369.3971 

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Schedule Mishaps, Tragedies, and flying to Vegas

So, due to some miscommunication (and a few blond moments on my part) I'm headed to Vegas a few days earlier than I thought I was. I know what you're thinking, HOW does that happen? ...well...I'm not sure. I was positive I wasn't flying in until the 18th. Then I got home from Uganda and got a really good look at my itinerary. Turned out that I was flying out on the 14th. Initiate mad rush to get a bunch of things done before I packed my battered suitcase for another travel adventure. Fast forward a few short days (a few VERY short days) and here I am in the Atlanta, Georgia airport, listening to a violinist playing outside of Nathan's Famous Hotdogs and waiting for my plane. I kid you not -- I'm getting a private concert and running about seven different "How do you get to Carnegie Hall?" jokes through my head.

I'm sure that by now, everyone has heard about the triple bombing (two sites, three bombs) in Kampala during the World Cup final the other day. My understanding is that the group responsible is connected to Al-Qaeda. The death toll (at last check) was in the seventies with a hundred or more hospitals. One of those lost was Nate Oteka Henn, who worked with Invisible Children. I'm putting the link to his memorial page here: http://blog.invisiblechildren.com/2010/07/in-loving-memory-of-nate-oteka-henn/. None of the Child Voice International family was involved, and after several days of tracking down the contacts that I have in-country (as well as the family of my adoptive sister Eunice) no one that I knew personally was injured, although several people knew people who had lost their lives. It took me a few days to process this, and I debated for a long time whether or not I should comment on it. Please do not allow this to be filed under "typical for 'those people'" and please do not assume that this means that my work in Uganda is any more dangerous than work anywhere else. Kampala is back up and running again, and everything is calming down. And while we mourn for those who were lost, shrinking back in fear allows the people who committed this atrocity to win. There is too much yet to be done for the work to stop now.

That being said, it is with a lot on my mind and a heavy heart that I packed my bag to board another plane, this time for home. For this trip, I chose the carry-on version of the battered suitcase (who wants to pay $25 per bag to check luggage domestically? Not me!) and lovingly stuffed it with sundresses and knick-knacks picked up while I was in Uganda. I was up this morning before the sun and driving through the fog and drizzle rain to Charlotte, NC, to catch the first plane. Once I got to the airport I was immediately grateful for having been raised on the Las Vegas airport (particularly concourse D) as it is there that I learned to be 2-3 hours early for any flight due to security lines up the hall and around the corner. Normally, the line at Charlotte is about 10 minutes max. Today, due to construction, security line B was the only one open. I was in line for an hour. Top that with the fact that BOTH of my carry-on bags were hand checked by security guards (those Ugandan instruments apparently can make it through all of the screening processes from Entebbe to Amsterdam to Detroit, but Charlotte finds them to be suspicious) and you get me, exhausted, and already done before I'd begun.

The first leg was a quick one -- forty minutes. The next one will be longer and will hopefully involve some sleep (something I haven't really gotten any of the last few days). Trish is coming to pick me up from McCarran, and I'll stay with her a day or two until my folks get home from the family vacation to Oregon.

I'm not really sure what this adventure will hold. Horse back riding? Random fund raising? A tour through the "new" CityCenter? Del TACO? I'm sure.

Stay tuned!

Monday, July 5, 2010

A Profound Lack of Profundity

I am going to attempt to write the following blog with a 12 lb cat sleeping on my lap between my laptop (which is on my knees) and my stomach. It may be the shortest trip follow-up in history as a result. At least you know that Oliver remembered who I was and is happy to have me home.

The last couple of days have been a blur. I was positive that I could beat the jet-lag, if I slept long enough on the plane and drank enough water. No such luck. By the time Peter picked me up from the airport on Saturday afternoon (in his nicest clothes. with flowers. and--more importantly--a Five Guys Burgers gift card. I admit it. I'm spoiled.) I was basically delirious. I still managed to eat about half a burger and some small amount of fries. That I did this without getting sick is both a credit to the freshness of Five Guys' Burgers and to my time with Apio in Kampala (where I tried to get my food tolerance levels up just a bit). 

I then forced myself to stay up until 9:00 PM.

Yesterday morning, I was awake at 5:30 AM. Then, despite the plan for Peter and I to go to Charleston to see the fireworks out at Patriot's Point, I was dead to the world at 4:00 PM, and he was completely unable to wake me up until about 7:30 PM, which meant that we were stuck watching fireworks in town. This was not all-together a bad thing, as there were a couple of really great displays and we didn't have to drive 2 hours to see them.

I also got to talk to my parents and brothers last night on the phone for the first time since I made it home. They're all in Oregon right now enjoying another family adventure to Yachats. I almost joined them, but with the jetlag being what it is, I'm kind of glad I didn't add a five hour flight to my list of to-dos for Saturday. I did manage to be included in all of the family banter about Michael's ears, Cammeron's cell phone bill, and Matthew's inability to win at Backgammon. Here's to debates that you have to be related to enjoy! I've missed my family. I'm headed out to Vegas to see them in about a week and a half (stay tuned for that edition of the Battered Suitcase travel-blog!).

Last night I went to bed at 11:00...this morning? Still up at 5:30 and hating life because I know that I'll have energy until exactly 3:30 PM, when my body says, "In Uganda it is 10:30! We must go to sleep NOW!"

Oyyy..

I suppose that I meant to write something incredibly profound here about the way that this trip changed my life. But then, I think that the most important thing I learned during my nearly 2 months in Uganda was that I am neither central or profound. I've ceased to believe that there is a "grand work" for me outside of the grand commission to love everyone wherever you have a heart to. Peter's heart is for soldiers -- he's working towards his MDiv so he can be an Army Chaplain. Trish's heart is for the elderly -- she's working in a nursing home. My heart is for Uganda. Therefore, I'm going to love people there with all of the energy I've got. And I'm going to quit worrying if I've got some job to do that I could potentially miss. As I've stated here before, that place doesn't need me nearly as much as I need that place. Getting to do PhD research there is just an added benefit.

Mostly, the trip gave me context. Now, I can watch documentaries like Invisible Children and I recognize not only where they're filming, but also places where they've exaggerated facts. I definitely feel it has made the difference for my research and I'm looking forward to future trips.

I also gained a firm appreciation for what I left behind and got to come back to. I appreciate my family, who have nervously waited for me to get back onto US soil, but have been very good about not freaking out (if your daughter's in Uganda...you've got a right to worry.) I appreciate my cats, who have been shadowing my every move since I got home. I appreciate my friends, who are all calling and all really missed me (true friends are true gifts). I appreciate Peter, who patiently waited for me to get home and has been extremely patient in dealing with my hyper-exhaustion as well as my need to explain every detail of my trip -- complete with pictures.

I appreciate consistent running water. Cross walks. Roads without potholes. Food I can trust. My shower. Mocha Frappacinos. Sub sandwiches. Air conditioning. Constant electricity. The washer/dryer. Reasonable sewage facilities. American freedoms. Wal-Mart. Phone calls home that don't cost $20. Reasonable access to medical care. Fresh books that I actually want to read.

The list goes on.

I miss the mangoes. I miss Child Voice International's Lukodi compound. I miss Eunice, Monika, Lowna, D'Andrea, Malika, Rheme, and my boda driver Mande. I miss the stupid rooster in the morning. And chipotti. I miss the CTC, the Acholi Ber, and Sankofa.

So basically...this post, which lacks the profundity I was hoping it would have, is here to say that I came. I saw. I learned. And now I'm home. I wholly recommend international travel to everyone of every age. And I can't wait to do it again (After I get over my jet lag.).

My next trip is to Fabulous Las Vegas to see family at the end of the month, and then a trip in October to Salzburg, Austria to present at an academic conference, so this Battered Suitcase isn't being mothballed just yet! Stay tuned for future adventures!

Saturday, July 3, 2010

God Bless America! -or- Coming Home!

Waiting for our flight at Entebbe Int'l Airport

Hello all from Detroit, MI! 

I haven't got much time -- plane for Columbia is about to board. Just wanted to drop everyone a note and let you know that I made it back to the USA safe and sound. I even managed to get through customs and immigration without *much* problem (okay, so I was scanned more than a barcode and patted down at just about every juncture...but I managed to twice avoid the full body scanners!). 

Some interesting things I wanted to report on as I wrap up the trip (one final blog coming later to tie up loose ends):

-As we left for Entebbe, our private hire driver (Lawrence Jr.) had a full conversation with us about how America is wonderful but our seasons are just so temperamental. "Here, we have two seasons: rainy and dry." he reminded me. I had to agree, two seasons seems more consistent than four. He also insisted that Africa was in the process of making history. "A black man is the president of America, the World Cup is being held in South Africa, and Ghana is going to take the cup this year!" he predicted. Unfortunately, only two of those ended up being true as Ghana was narrowly defeated last night (after an awesome showing) by Uruguay. 

-In the airport there was a Mzungu woman who had just adopted a Ugandan baby. She looked scared to death that they were going to not allow her to leave the country with the child, or maybe she was just scared to death to finally be taking him home. Foreign adoptions are extra-long, extra-complicated affairs (as if adoption wasn't a long and hard enough process!). 

-In Amsterdam, Apio and I went into one of the duty-free shops to look around. We saw the following boxes of cigarettes. 
Cigarettes in Schiphol Airport

We just thought they were interesting. Denise thinks that every box of cigarettes should come with such labeling. Personally, I think that's kind of nanny-state-ish and think that people who smoke are well aware that it kills you (I've never known a smoker who didn't consistently tell me that they needed to quit) and grown adults should make decisions like grown adults. All the same...the packaging was definitely blog-worthy.

-On the flight from Amsterdam to Detroit I sat next to a very nice professor from Kansas who had a really interesting conversation with me about India, Uganda, and various differences between these two countries and America. He had to laugh when I said that I was stoked to see Detroit. "Why?" he asked. He was coming from a one week conference in Austria. There are much worse people to spend 7.5 hours of your life sitting next to. 

-Upon exiting the flight in Detroit I wound up going through customs. I laughed here too as the guy was like, "What kind of ranch were you on?" (I'd checked "soil" on the "foreign products" box on my inbound paperwork.) "Well...it wasn't really a ranch." I said. "Well, what kind of animals were you around?" he asked, "Goats, pigs, chickens, ducks...the usuals." I said. "So you were on a farm?" he said. "No." I responded, "I was in Northern Uganda. They have chickens and goats at the hotel." He was still confused, but let me pass. It was a hilarious exchange for someone working on 4 hours sleep and on a 27 hour journey. 

-Finally: Once I'd made it through immigration, customs, etc, and had made my way to my gate to sit down (after changing clothes) I began to take note of where I was (no longer in a rush to get from one place to another). I couldn't help it...I began to cry. Don't get me wrong. I've loved Uganda and cried when I left. I cannot wait to get back and I am definitely glad that I went. But I am an American and I have missed my country. Being away has made me appreciate it for all of its good and its bad points. I love this place. Best of all, I'm home the day before Independence Day (4th of July). Peter and I are going to drive down to Charleston tomorrow to watch the fireworks, walk the beaches, and celebrate the place that I am happy to call home. I can't think of a more fitting way to end this incredible journey. 

Happy Independence Day everyone!!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

31 Hours and Counting

Our first afternoon in Kampala I made a rookie mistake. After six weeks of beef stew, rice, posho, beans, etc (and the occasional piece of pizza) we decided to have our first meal back in the "big city" at Java's, which is the trendy ex-pat hangout we went to upon first arrival. For the record, their food is awesome and their juice is tasty, but they are PRICEY. I didn't realize how hungry I was until I went to order the beef burger and chips (fries), thinking to myself 'I haven't finished a meal since I arrived in Uganda, I think I'll be able to get through half of this.' HA. Apparently I'd failed to converse with my stomach in advance. The burger came, I smothered in it Heinz Ketchup (funny how much I missed that stuff!) and inhaled that and half of my salty, greasy, chips.

By that evening I was thoroughly regretting this decision. My stomach reacted against the grease, or against the spices, or against any number of things that were in that burger and chips that were not in my average Gulu diet. Ye-e-ech. Yesterday's main meal consisted of a bean, cheese, and guacamole wrap that I shared with Apio because we figured "the blander the better". I'm suddenly re-thinking my initial plan to hit up Five Guys Burgers for a burger and fries when I get home. Maybe we'll give me a plate of rice and beans and I'll ease myself back into the American menu.

Other than that we've just been trying to stay busy getting our final tourist shopping out of the way, receiving some last minute visits to friends (Lowna was down for 1-1/2 days of this Kampala stay, and that was really nice), and getting our final packing out of the way. NUFU House is really pleasant and we spent some time last night in the grass with the chickens just talking about not-a-whole-lot.

Today was spent at the National Theatre being overcharged for crafts and other random Uganda/Africa goodies. Then a trip to the Garden City Mall where we attempted to find Apio an Africa United jersey (turns out the guys up North weren't kidding..they're NOT for sale and you CAN'T get one ANYWHERE. Sheesh!). I took a stop by the Aristoc bookstore to pick up a copy of the much-talked-about Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (crime thriller) so that I'd have a book to read on the plane. It seems like every third person I've spoken to since being here either had the book in their hand or was talking about it, so I thought I'd give it a go. I'm so far not that impressed, but I'm only 25 pages in. Maybe my 8 hour plane ride from Amsterdam to Detroit on Saturday will change my mind.

At this point, I've processed Gulu and put it in its box. I'm ready to come home -- I've got so MUCH left to get done this summer! Tomorrow afternoon we'll do one more lunch at Java's and then take showers, change, and pack into the private hire for the two hour drive to Entebbe. From there, checking in, a several hour wait for the airplane, and (barring all malfunctions) we'll take off at 10:50 PM, Uganda time. There's wireless in Amsterdam, so I'll probably update from there. Then I'll be Stateside on Saturday.

Until then!

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

"Go to Come."

Hello from Kampala!

Apio and I are sitting in the NUFU (Norwegian Students) Guest House on the Mekerere University Campus. It is a pleasant place surrounded by green, and just a bit of peace in the hectic world that is Kampala. I have no love spared for this city. Too much traffic, too many people, and entirely too many ways to get a headache in one day.

I'm borrowing Apio's computer to write this, so I can't take long (my computer refuses to allow me to set up a land line internet connection) but I wanted to fill you all in on last night and this morning (Reader's Digest Version).

Yesterday we spent a long time at Lucy the Tailor's "Friendship Shop" getting my African sundress altered. It is very cute and I'll have to post pictures when my computer starts seeing internet again. Apio's dress is a stunning evening type dress (she lookes AMAZING) but mine was meant to be a kicky type sundress. It's cut off at the knee. I like it, but it took forever to get the measurements right. After that I went back to the hotel in hyperdrive to begin to pack.

I spent last night admiring the stars with the other remaining member of my Acholi Ber trio, Mike, and after we'd said our goodbyes and headed our separate ways I took a trip downstairs to say goodbye to Eunice. I wasn't ready for that.

"Oh Mickie! I'm going to miss you!" She cried as she gave me a huge hug. "Send my greetings to everyone! Your parents! And all your sisters! And Peter!"

It wasn't a goodbye I wanted to say, but it needed to be done. Eunice had planned to come in early this morning to see me off but I told her not to. She already works 14 hour days without me bringing her in an hour and a half early.

5:30 AM came too soon. I took in one last glimpse of the mist rising above the huts beneath the hotel and choked back the tears that wanted to flow. Mark (owner of Acholi Ber) helped me out with my bags and Father Joseph drove up with Apio to take us to the Post Office to catch the bus.

When we got to the bus stop, Father Joe gave me a big hug.

"Alright, Megan!" he told me, "Go to come." (as in, "Go so you can get back quickly.")

Then he took Apio into a big never-ending hug. It was a little painful to watch because I know how hard it was for both of them to say goodbye so soon after our arrival. Father Joseph drove away quickly after that.

The post bus ride down was fast (only five hours) and uneventful. We talked to fill the silence so we wouldn't have to think too much and then when there was nothing left to talk about, Apio slept and I thought. And tried not to cry.

We're spending the next few days in Kampala with Lowna, who happened to be down South processing visa paperwork and such. It should be a relatively busy and stressfree time.

But first I've taken some time to process. I needed it. Alone time, away from everyone, to just let myself cry a little. I feel like a bit of a baby...I mean, I was barely in Gulu six weeks. But I guess I should've seen this coming. After my mission-trip to Mexico I had a hard time saying goodbye to little Lorenzo (my five year old buddy) and we had only been together a short time. When I care, I care hard, and I care fast. I guess I wear my heart on my sleeve like that. And I did fall for Gulu. I fell for Lukodi. I fell hard for every little child that I got to spend time with (Maaaaliiiikaaa!) and for every woman who shared a moment of conversation with me. I fell for the staff of CVI, for the staff at Acholi Ber, and for the Fathers out at CTC. And I fell for the stars, and the rain, and the mud. And many other things I'll have to list in a totally other blog.

am sad to be going. This experience has changed me in a lot of ways and the people that I've become close to have gotten a special place in  my heart.  And while I'm happy to be headed home, I'm going to miss everyone in Gulu, everyone at Lukodi, and everyone in between.

What a ride.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Animals, Arachnids, and Africa United (Not All Together)



Donkey!

Happy Sunday!

Today I took one final trip to the Catechist Training Center (no, really, this time I mean it!) to enjoy some time in the countryside outside of Gulu-Town (which is kind of lonely now that my side-kick and younger-brother-stand-in Blake has gone home).

Blake's Last Trip to CTC

The boda ride was a little crazy because of the heavy rain last night (the muddy roads are scary on a dirt bike and there are moments that I wonder if it wouldn't have just been better to walk) but I made it safely to the gate of CTC and found my way inside. Today it is hot. Muggy hot. Like it's going to rain again hot. And that's wonderful (except that I need to plan my boda ride back appropriately so I don't get caught in it). It's a perfect way to end my last weekend in Gulu.

I met Denise at her hut, where we chatted about some of the things we're excited to get back home to. It's weird because both of us are silently dreading having to leave our respective Ugandan "Home"s, but we're both trying to make the most of it. For Denise, who has spent 12 of the last 24 months in Uganda, this is even more bitter than sweet. I like to joke that she was born backwards -- this is home and South Carolina is where she visits. For me the feeling is more one of being torn and having my heart be two places at once. We both decided that there were a few restaurants we're craving, and I'm looking forward to cuddling up on my couch with my cats. According to Delta-KLM, 5 days until we check in for our return flight home. Where has the time gone?

Lunch was a quiet affair, just Denise, myself, Mick, and Fr. Joseph and Fr. Felix. Chicken, chips, watermelon, beans, and posho. There was a smart little cat that kept wandering up through the door into the dining room and sitting at Denise's feet crying. She fed it and put it outside, but after she'd closed the door it hopped through the window. Fr. Joseph ended up chasing the cat back out of the room and out the window, laughing the entire time.

After lunch, we took a walk outside and Denise and Mick showed me the huge yellow and black spiders that were hanging from the trees there.

One of many spiders we antagonized today

"Are they dangerous?" Mick asked.

"No. I don't think so." Father Joe said with a smile. Then, after a second of contemplation he added, "But I wouldn't provoke them either!"

Well, never let it be said that we didn't get some good advice.

Of course, what would you do if you had a whole nest of giant spiders in giant webs and nothing else to do on a Sunday afternoon? Pretty soon we were poking the spiders and at one point a stick was thrown into one of the webs (that spider eventually made quick work of getting the stick out of his web. It was cool to watch!). We kept our distance (using long pieces of grass to touch the webs and spiders) and loudly hoped for the bees, wasps, and other flying bugs to land in the webs so we could watch the spiders make dinner of them. Unfortunately, no such luck.

We eventually got bored of the spiders and headed over to the farm area, where the goats, chickens, turkeys, geese, and pigs are kept. We named all of the piglets Wilbur, and all of the goats "Monday's Dinner, Tuesday's Dinner, Wednesday's Dinner."

Baby Piglets

It was funny because I don't have to watch them get slaughtered. However, having recently had the unfortunate honor of watching a goat be slaughtered I can tell you that eating an animal is one thing. Listening to it cry while it is made into dinner is a totally other thing. We've had a lot of conversations about whether or not we'd ever be willing to kill an animal to eat it. Have no fear, I've made up my mind that if it was my survival or the animal's survival, I'd thank God it had been put in front of me and I'd learn how to make it dinner.

Luckily for me, I haven't yet been faced with that task and most of my meat has managed its way to my plate without me meeting it first. Everyone knows what happens when you let me NAME an animal.


Monday's Dinner

Mostly, I was just kind of glad to be out of town today. Gulu is still recovering from its party last night (for those of you who aren't following the World Cup, Ghana thrashed the US last night 2-1). I had my Saturday phone call to Peter and afterwards decided to just stay in my room instead of going to the dining area to crowd around the little television set with the rest of the town. However, somewhere after midnight, as I was trying to doze off, a massive roar of cheering came from downstairs and from up the street. It seemed like the entire town was screaming and chanting all at once. I didn't need to go downstairs. I knew that Ghana had won. Africa United. 

Indeed. 

I'm the One in Need...

I'm going to take a moment to be totally honest here. This has been the hardest week emotionally for me since I first found myself on a trans-Atlantic flight bound for Europe and then Africa. I think it started when I got into a bit of a confrontation with another researcher where I was left attempting to justify what I was doing here. I'm not particularly well spoken in this arena anyway, as I'm not really confrontational and never have a very good come-back for someone who is criticizing my work. This guy had a bone to pick with me, my work, my advisor, and the whole damned American system of higher education. It left me a little stunned. It isn't the first time I've been under fire for my dissertation topic, but it is certainly the first time I've experienced such a vicious attack without warning. It was especially bad when he began reminding me that I wasn't doing any good by being here. That I was incapable of helping anyone through my research. By the time he'd finished with me, I was sitting on the front porch of the Acholi Ber in tears with some of my good-natured research friends trying to cheer me up.

There was a lot of talk about being one drop in an ocean...about making a difference in one life and allowing that to be enough. But there was a lot of agreement that sometimes we all just feel completely impotent here. So you fix one thing for one person...there's a lot of need here. A bottle of Ibuprofin costs two weeks wages and people live in pain every day for lack of a simple anti-inflammatory medication (and that's just the easy-to-fix stuff). I found out the other night that Eunice (my 23-year-old Acholi-Luo teacher) lost her husband last year to malaria. MALARIA. She's a single mother working 14 hour days, 7 days a week, because she's determined to pay her son's school fees (which are somewhere close to half of her monthly take home pay).

This is just one story. 

And this is not to romanticize any of this. These people are not "suffering nobly" or anything like that. The men, women, and children I've met are simply proving the resilience of the human spirit and the ability of a person to adapt to a bad situation. Their ability to maintain hope and happiness in the face of what I consider to be disaster (and they would just tell me "is life") has left me stunned. And humbled. Extremely humbled.

My perspective on Northern Uganda has made a 180 degree turn since I've started this journey almost 7 weeks ago. I have come to realize that this place doesn't need me. These people don't need me. This situation doesn't need me. I am the one in need of all of these people and everything they've taught me. I'm trying more and more to place my perspective less and less on what I see -- trying to understand how the people I meet see their lives and understand why they're still hopeful. I've gained perspective and family by being here and I bring home so much more than I could ever have given (not that I haven't tried!).

So, my advice to those who would come here attempting to single-handedly save the day...check your ego at the door. This isn't a place to come to "find yourself" and its not a place to come to pontificate high-minded liberal idealism. This is a place to come, help where you can, and learn. LEARN that life is not about any of the things we thought it was and -- more importantly -- realize that you are not the central theme of this equation.

But more importantly...learn that these people are just like any other people anywhere. There are good ones and bad ones. There are happy ones and sad ones. There is suffering, yes, but there is hope. And as Pollyanna as I dare to sound I'm going to say that I have hope for this place.

And I just hope that I get to come back sooner rather than later.

PS...Mango season makes the world go round. 


Saturday, June 26, 2010

Hands

Hands
(Jewel)

[Obviously, this isn't my writing. Thanks to Jewel for being stuck in my head for the past few days though.]


If I could tell the world just one thing it would be:
That we're all okay. 


And not to worry, cuz worry is wasteful 
and useless in times like these. 
I won't be made useless.
Or be idle with despair.
I'll gather myself around my faith, 
For light is the darkness most fear.


My hands are small I know
But they are not yours, they are my own.



They're not yours, they are my own,
And I am never broken. 
Poverty, stole your golden shoes
But it didn't steal your laughter.



Heartache came to visit me, 
but I knew it wasn't ever after.
Will you fight? Not out of spite.
Someone must stand up for what's right.
Cuz where there's a man who has no voice,
There I shall go singing. 



My hands are small I know, 
But they're not yours, they are my own.
They're not yours, they are my own,
And I am never broken.


In the end, only kindness matters.
In the end, only kindness matters.



I will get down on my knees, and I will pray.
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray.
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray.



My hands are small I know, 
But they are not yours, they are my own.
They're not yours, they are my own.
And I am never broken. 
We are never broken. 
We are God's eyes.
God's hands.
God's heart.



We are God's eyes.
God's hands.
God's heart. 



Friday, June 25, 2010

Crochet Hooks, Lullabies, and New Dresses

Hello all!

Earlier this week I got the chance to be out at Lukodi again. Those of you who have been following know that this place has become my safe haven and favorite place to be. When I want to be reminded of the good that is being accomplished here (by all of the people who are working so hard to make change) I take a trip to Lukodi. Mama D'Andrea and Lowna have been amazingly kind and all of the staff have been more than welcoming. 

Usually, I spend my time at Lukodi surrounded by children. This is for many reasons. First of all, I'm painfully shy. A lot of the women are pretty shy too. This makes a no-win situation compounded by a language barrier. All in all, it's easier to build a relationship with children (especially since our language skills are roughly the same) so I've been doing a lot of that. The women know me because they know I play with their kids, but we've never crossed the relationship border. Until this time.

Long story short, Winnie (counselor) was teaching the girls how to crochet under the mango tree outside. I had little Malika on my lap, definitely falling asleep. Matron and Winnie taught me some lullabies, which absolutely put the little girl under a trance and off she went to sleepy-town.

Cutest Kid Ever. 
Loves to Mimic Me Saying Her Name..."Ma-liiiiikaaaa!"
 (imagine it with a false exhasperated sigh coming from an under-fiver)

After I put her down on the straw mat, I asked Winnie what the girls were making.

"Seat covers." She said. "You know how to do this?"

"Barely." I responded.

Next thing I knew, I was handed a skein of army green yarn and a teeny tiny crochet hook and I was attempting to start a Granny Square (a very basic stitch and the only one I'd had the patience to learn when my mother was trying to teach me how to crochet at the age of eight).

I worked on it all day and into the night (although none of us could figure out why I'd been given the task, I was happy to have something to do). Then the coolest thing happened...as I progressed, the women began walking up to me and grabbing my square, comparing it, and smiling at me.

"Ber!" they'd say ("good!")

"Apwoyo Matek!" I'd respond. It wasn't much of a conversation, but it was something.

I spent the afternoon and evening surrounded by the women, all of us working on our crochet, and periodically having mine examined by a woman holding an intricate doily pattern and feeling like a schlub for having no crochet expertise. As the sun disappeared and the darkness began to make it impossible to see, Kirsten asked Rheme where she learned to do crochet, which she was doing quite well.

"My mother taught me." she smiled.

This is where I need to pause and explain that from the first trip that I've made to Lukodi, Rheme has been the one woman I really wanted to talk to. Whenever the girls were doing music or practicing their skit for the Day of the African Child she was always one of the most animated and definitely one of the funniest to talk to. She was constantly cutting up in English and in Luo and causing the group to bust into fits of laughter. On Sundays she's one of the most active dancers and singers. But, if you tried to talk to her she'd clam up out of shy-ness. Rheme was one of the women who walked up to me earlier in the day and after a thorough examination of my work just gave me a nod and walked off. To get four words from her made me feel like I'd won the relationship lottery. I floated to bed that night.

The next morning, at the break of dawn, I followed Lowna out to the side road behind the compound where she was planning to take a run. I was positive I wouldn't be able to keep up, but since I'd brought my inhaler with me to the compound I decided it was safe to push it. And push it I did, knocking one more thing off of my bucket list ("go for a run in Uganda"). The sun came up through a really heavy mist that morning and just hung like a giant red ball on the Eastern horizon. We passed men and women working on patches of farm land, past hundreds of feet of grass that was taller than we were. At one point I ran into a flock of chickens and they thought I was chasing them so they ran ahead of me in the road. Suddenly I have a new found respect for people who can actually catch one of those things for dinner...

I made it about twenty minutes before I had to stop, walk, and have the conversation with my lungs that went something like, "You are lungs. Your job is to breathe. In. And. Out." Still, it was a beautiful morning to attempt a run.

I'm still not sure where the hours go when I am at Lukodi. Somehow it was immediately after lunchtime and I was sitting with pastor by the rabbit hutch out back. We were having a debate over whether or not rabbits were food. I claimed that they were pets. He laughed, "What a waste of meat!" We were still going on when Lily came up, curtsied before Pastor, and said something quietly in Luo while pointing to me.

"This lady has a request." he said, "That you would start her a project like yours. She says she can do it, but she can't start it."

"Of course!" I said, hoping that I'd do a better job of starting hers than I had of starting mine...which looked a little like a giant puffball in the middle.

About twenty minutes later I went to find Lily under the mango tree, where she was doing another woman's hair. She thanked me as another woman came up and started speaking to me in Luo as if I understood. I gave her a confused look and she started to laugh. Then she held up Lily's pattern and pointed to me.

"Yes. I did that." I said.

"Ber." She said. Then she pointed to herself then pointed to me.

"You want me to do yours too?" I asked.

She nodded. I agreed. She lit off towards the dorms to grab hers. What she came back with was a gorgeous flowered pattern that I couldn't have done with a million years and practice. "REC!" she said ("bad") holding it up. Pointing to mine she nodded, "Ber." ("good."). I laughed.

"NO! I said, "Yours is ber. Mine is rec!" but I helped her unwind her pattern and started her a granny square. I was completely confused, but going with it, just glad that the girls were talking to me (even if we were barely understanding each other).

Me and Rheme. 
I asked if I could take her picture and she said, "Take a picture of you and me!"
This is when Rheme came up to me, "You are finished?" she asked.

"No, I'm helping the others and I seem to have lost my needle. Do you think you could finish it for me Rheme?"

"Yes. I can finish." She grabbed it and went over to her seat. Later I went over and we were talking again. "Why can't you finish?" she asked.

"I don't have time. I have to go." I said.

"You are going to town?" she asked.

"Yes."

"Good. And you will be back when?" She asked.

I was a little bowled over. I hadn't really planned to be back to Lukodi again, figuring that the center had already more than accommodated me during this stay. But the relationship that I was getting with the girls had taken me the entire time I'd been here and several trips to the compound to actually get started. I decided I was going to have to come back for a day trip. I told Rheme that.

All too soon the trip was over (again) and the CVI van was fired up to head back to town. Richard (the driver) gave me exactly two minutes to hug everyone goodbye and then we were back on the road.

The next day, Lowna and Denise came to town and the three of us enjoyed lunch together. Lowna was headed down to Kampala, so it was going to be her last chance to see us before we left. Lowna is a wonderful person and has been not only sweet but has humored my persistent requests to spend time in Lukodi, graciously giving me her bed. The trouble with making friends in foreign places is that at some point everyone goes home. We all agreed though -- this is a perfect excuse for Denise and I to go to South Africa at some point (and with Denise headed to Oxford, we have a perfect excuse to go to England too!).

Denise Being Measured. 

Lowna left us at Lucy's (the tailor) where Denise and I had made the decision to have dresses made. I found the coolest green fabric that has a picture of Africa on it, and Denise chose a yellow/maroon flowered pattern. We drew pictures of what we were looking for, and Lucy took measurements. She's going to get them back to us on Monday afternoon and she only charged us 27,000 UGX ($13.00 USD). The most awesome part of all of this was when Lucy went to measure Denise. She was writing down her numbers and she said, "Your stomach is somehow missing..."

"I told her we need to feed her more! She's too skinny!" I said.

All of the girls in the shop agreed. We were laughing about that for a long while after.

At this point, we're mostly just wrapping up and saying goodbye. This afternoon what's left of the Carolina crew is headed to CTC to do lunch with Fr. Joseph before we go. Tonight we're treating Blake to Sancofa pizza, since he's getting on the plane tomorrow to leave. Denise and I are going to catch a postal bus on Tuesday or Wednesday down to Kampala. Then we'll catch our plane on Friday evening. My head is still spinning...I almost wish I had another week or two. But then again...I was dreaming about Chipotle, sour cream, and colby jack cheese last night. It's time.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Y'Ello Fest!

Me and Some Friends at Y'Ello Fest

Yesterday was an exciting day for Gulu. MTN ("Official Mobile Sponsor of the FIFA World Cup") held a massive party at the Kaunga Grounds. Y'Ello Fest was MTN's way of implementing their World Cup tagline: "Africa United." The grounds was supposed to be set up with a stage and large screens (which they were going to play the Ivory Coast v. Brazil game on at night) as well as fireworks and concerts. We'd heard that they were expecting some 30,000 people to attend -- one of the biggest events in Gulu in the last few years. Now, in general I like large crowds as much as I enjoy having dental work done, but we thought we should go down anyway. I mean, when is the next time I'll get to say that I attended a majorly attended event in N. Uganda?

Not to mention -- the MTN guys had been staying at our hotel and all of them were wearing the extremely cool "Africa United" jerseys that I'd seen only on television. I don't know what the coverage of World Cup is like at home, but here they are constantly playing commercials with these awesome yellow jerseys and when they cover South Africa everyone in South Africa seems to be wearing these jerseys. I tried to get one online, but it turns out they aren't for sale. They're a promotional item only. According to the MTN guys we talked to, they would be available at Y'Ello Fest. That settled it. I was going.

Blake and I made our way over in the morning, as they were still setting up the grounds. There were already a few hundred people just standing around waiting for the excitement to begin.

Kaunga Grounds at 11:00 in the Morning

We searched for people to ask for the yellow jerseys, but we had no luck. The people at the MTN tents said that they didn't have them. Then later, when the MTN vans rolled up they told us that they weren't giving them out. I was really disappointed, but definitely willing to live with the fact that I wasn't going to be the bearer of a fabulous yellow jersey. 

It was getting hot, and kind of crowded, and we'd pretty much taken pictures of everything possible, so we decided to head back to town. Blake headed his own way for lunch and I headed to Cafe Larem to meet Lowna. Now, Lowna had been looking for a vuvuzuela (the fabulously annoying horns from World Cup) which the MTN guys had been toting around. I'd had no luck scoring one of those either. We discussed this as we headed to market, where Lowna needed to buy produce (and I picked up another two yards of fabulous fabric for my sisters back at home). 

Coming back to Acholi Ber, we ran into the MTN manager, Silva, as he was headed out to Kaunga Grounds.  Lowna explained to him, "I'm South African. I NEED a vuvuzuela." ...low and behold, he happened to have just one handy, which he kindly gave to Lowna (completely making her morning). 

Lowna and Her Vuvuzuela (And Mark -- Manager of Acholi Ber)

Silva also told me that if I went back to Kaunga Grounds and told them that Silva said I could have a jersey, that they would get me one. I was stoked. 

Back inside Acholi Ber, we ran into Dean (researcher) who had been talking to CNN about the significance of this event. On the outside, it just looked like a good excuse for MTN to sell mobile phones sand air time. But Dean pointed out to us that this event was making the term "Africa United" a reality. This event opened the World Cup to people who didn't have access to televisions, who didn't have access to news about the games, and who might not even have been able to get it on the radio. Because the event was free, it was going to make accessible this major game (which included some major African sports figures) to everyone. This isn't even to mention that a few short years ago it would've almost been unthinkable for such an event (concert, game, fireworks) to be held in Gulu. This is big news.

Brianna, Blake, Dean, and I decided at around 2:00 to head back to the Kaunga Grounds. Blake and I had already had too much sun for the day, but we decided that one more go at those yellow jerseys might prove worth it. We headed into the MTN tents and told the manager that Silva had given instructions for us to receive jerseys. He said he could give them to us but that it was difficult to get them in the tents, would we mind waiting until he finished some business (give-aways) on stage? "Of course!" we said. 

There was a soccer match being played by some girls on one of those blow up soccer stadiums (which I couldn't see due to height impediment, but it sounded fun at least) and a concert with some star we'd never heard of. When we finally got a hold of the manager he told us to meet him behind the stage, so we trekked across the grounds to follow him quickly back behind the stage. Once there, we found him under an easy-up with several gun-toting guards and some guys who definitely looked like they'd been the musical talent on the stage. We avoided the guards (who were shooing children away from the tent) and tried to follow the manager out of the area, when my hand was grabbed by one of the guys who was sitting down.

"I'm sorry. I have to know. What is your name?" he asked. I told him and he wanted to talk to me, but the manager wanted us to follow him so I was like, "I'll be back!" 

Through the crowd, around the tents, behind the stage, around the inflated soccer stadium, and to the MTN vehicles, where the man handed us three yellow jerseys. SUCCESS! 

Brianna and Blake Rocking the Africa United Jerseys

"If I give these to you, you must put them on right now!" he said. uhh...no problem!

Once we were in our new jerseys, we headed back to the easy up where we re-introduced ourselves to the guy who wanted to know who we were. It turned out that my first instinct was right, he was the guy who had just been on stage, and apparently he's someone kind of big in Gulu. 

"Don't you know who I am?" he asked.

"Uhhhh....no?" we said. 

"Hitmaker Z-Man!" he said, as if that meant anything to us. I gathered by the large group of people being herded off by guards that we had just met someone important. He gave us a copy of his CD, took pictures with us, completely baffled that we still didn't know who he was. 

Me, My Hard-Won Jersey, and Hitmaker Z-Man 

We ended up heading out at that point, having spent way too many hours in the sun. Dinner at Sancofa, then back to the hotel, where the sun caught up to me (stupid allergy) and I nursed myself back to health out on the back balcony. Blake and I decided not to go to the night time festivities, instead watching the fireworks from the balcony of the Acholi Ber (can I just say how COOL that was?). 

I heard this morning though that MTN had neglected to buy enough gas for their generator and so that the group who had gone back to the grounds was left in the dark for a while (surrounded by 30,000 people...kinda glad I didn't go back). My assumption is (since the noise continued late into the night) that they eventually got the power back on. Even if they didn't, the day seemed to have been a massive success just based on the number of people there early on (the second time we went there were at least a few thousand milling around and I'm sure the number only increased after we left). 

The guys from MTN are packing up their gear this morning, having brought a party to Gulu. The people around are still buzzing about it. After I write this I'm headed back out to Lukodi for another overnight (awesome!) so if you guys don't hear from me, don't worry, I'm just out of range for a couple of days. 

Friday, June 18, 2010

Happy Birthday!

Today has been a good day on many counts. First of all, it is MaMa D'Andrea's birthday. I bought her a kilo of sugar yesterday and left it on her desk in the office. Of course, the poor ChildVoice van has been terribly ill the last few days so D'Andrea didn't make it to the office yesterday. Today she boda'd in, in the rain, and seemed pleasantly surprised by the sugar I'd left her. I know it doesn't sound like much of a gift, but staples are practical gifts and I knew she was running low. We also managed to convince her to take some time out of her day to let us take her to lunch and so it was me, Brianna and Dean (who are working on a project regarding the use of sports in reintegration), and D'Andrea all enjoying some Indian food and good conversation. That and the early morning rain has really made this a productive but low-key day.

Of course, the best part of today came when I spent a couple of hours with Monica and Eunice (my Acholi-Luo teachers and friends). I wasn't feeling very well and had come back to the hotel to take some ibuprofen for some body aches. I had about an hour before we were to meet D'Andrea for lunch, and so I sat in the lobby of Acholi Ber with Monica and Eunice to talk.

"Mickie!" Monica said, "Mickie you have gotten so skinny. You need to eat more. You must go back home fat so they know we fed you well!"

We all laughed. Then Monica said, "Mickie, teach us how to use your laptop!"

So, I pulled my computer out of my backpack and began going through the basics of how to use a computer. This is how you turn the computer on. This is how you create a word document. This is how you play music. Then I showed them that if I took the card from my camera out I could plug it into my computer and we could see pictures. Then I pulled up all of the pictures I have on my computer to show them my home, my family, my cats, my apartment, and my boyfriend.

Apio in Charleston Last Fall

I pulled up the pictures that I took of the trip that Denise and I took last Fall Break to Charleston, SC. When the picture of Denise on the beach came up Eunice said, "That is Apio!"

I smiled. "Yes, that is Apio. At home I call her Denise."

"Dennis?" Monica said.

"Yes," I said, "But here, Dennis sounds like the name of a boy, but everyone knows that Apio means she's a girl!" We all giggled and they both agreed that here Apio fit her very well. Apio means first born, female twin. Monica said that she was Acen--which is the second born, female twin.

Then Monica said, "You should also leave with a name. Like Aber [pronounced Ah-Bay which means 'good' or 'beautiful']. Because you are good!"

Eunice agreed, "That is a good name for you!"

"I will call you that from now on. Ok, Aber?" Monica said.

I was floored. Being given an Acholi name is like being christened. The name can't just come from a person you meet once or don't know very well. It symbolizes being taken in as family, being considered one of the community. I've been here only a little over a month. Sure, they adopted me out at Lukodi, but even there I've only been to visit a handful of times and wouldn't have felt comfortable accepting a name from there.

Eunice and Her Baby Boy Ryan

At first I wasn't sure if it was appropriate to be named so soon in my journey. But then, all along I have said that were I to receive a name the only people I would've been able to accept one from would have been Monica or Eunice. They work at Acholi Ber which means that I've spent every day with them since I got to Gulu. Monica asked me to be her American contact for her interviews with Invisible Children, and I agreed (of course!). Eunice brought her baby boy up to meet me and we spent time talking about raising babies in Gulu. I've taken lessons from them, I've talked about our different homes with them, we've discussed our lives. We have celebrated together, we have worried together, and we have become friends. It is fitting and appropriate that these two young women, my first friends in Acholi-land, would give me my name.

I'm really not sure what more I could've asked for from a foundation building trip. I believe that I am well set for my work to really get off the ground next year when I return. If we had any doubts about whether or not I should be coming back...whether or not I had an obligation to continue...rest assured. This is where my work will be for some time to come.

I guess today was my birthday too...

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

"I am somehow sick..."

Today I was supposed to be back at Lukodi talking to Pastor about the role of spirituality in healing. Of course, if I'm on the internet writing this you have probably guessed that I'm nowhere near Lukodi at the moment. I am, in fact, sitting at Cafe Larem where I am enjoying day number two of a very not-sweet illness. Or, as they say around here, "I am somehow sick."

I kind of like that phrase. When they say that they are "somehow sick" it is as if they were completely taken by surprise...almost bewildered. Like it was sudden and the symptoms were not gradual. As if one minute I was well and the next minute I was  "somehow sick." As if to say, "HOW did this happen?"

Symptoms are the usuals. Yesterday my throat was sore and my body was sore and my stomach was upset. Then, after spending the day in bed, the symptoms changed to not being able to hold down food and an achy body. Today I'm down to just the achy body. I think if I had a fever it broke during the night because I'm actually feeling much improved over yesterday, just not up to par yet. I didn't think it would be wise to take my germs to the compound, so I'll go back in a day or two when I'm feeling well again.

[side note: I have had an underlying homesickness this entire trip...but yesterday afternoon I would've sold my cats for a thirty minute soak in my bathtub at home. THAT is saying something.]

On the plus side -- if I wanted to spend the day in my hotel room sleeping, such a thing would not be completely out of my ability. On the down side -- I'm leaving Gulu in a week or so and I really have a lot of things I want to do before that happens.

Don't worry. It isn't anything serious. Just a cold. It's more aggravating than anything else.

C'est la vie.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

My Only Note About Trauma

A number of people have emailed me to ask about my posts. The questions usually center on the impact of the war on this area. The Gulu I'm talking about doesn't seem to be the same Gulu that they've heard about. I've been asked a few times if the people have fully gotten over the war and maybe that is why I'm able to blog about things like boda rides, pizza, smiling children, and experiences at church. I thought I should address this briefly.

Last night I was fortunate to be a guest at the Catechist Training Center for supper. I had a meeting planned with Father Joe and he'd indicated that his schedule was quite packed but he might be able to give me some time after the meal. Our conversation meandered over the latest updates in my research topic (unofficial working title: "Spirituality and the Northern Ugandan War") and how beautiful the church bells sound in the morning. We spoke briefly about how long he had been with CTC (1986-1988, then again 1994-present). We talked about the hope that people felt throughout the war, how homilies had helped them, which songs had come to their minds during times of trouble, and other things. Later, as he and Apio (Denise) drove me back to town ("it would be unadvisable to take a boda on this road at night."), the conversation briefly paused as he told us that for ten years during the war 400+ children came every night to sleep under the verandas of the CTC in order to avoid abduction by the LRA. It was a subtle reminder of the not-too-distant past of Northern Uganda.

Some of the Verandas of the CTC

Make no mistake. The war may be over here, but this place is still recovering. Many people imagine war involvement being akin to asking an American if they had served in the military. You might have, or you might know someone who had. Here, asking if they'd been involved in the war is more akin to asking if someone from Las Vegas had ever been inside a casino or asking someone from Florida if they'd ever gotten a sunburn. It is nearly everyone in some way. The papers have done a poor job of conveying the magnitude of this conflict, although the picture painted is not entirely inaccurate. Every day I talk to people who lost loved ones, who lost limbs, who lost their homes, who nearly lost their lives.

But I want to be clear. The people I have met are not sitting around all day talking about the war and how terrible life has become. They are dealing with what is left and picking up the pieces. They are making the most of the tenuous but hopeful peace that has come to the area. The IDP camps have been dismantled, and while not everyone has yet gone home, many are trying to (or trying to figure out what they'll do now given limited resources or other limitations). There are now land issues to resolve, psychological traumas that linger, educational upsets that need to be mitigated amongst other things. Still -- this is a place of great hope.

I believe that there are enough news outlets, journalists, and researchers who can focus on the negatives here. They can tell you all day about Northern Uganda and the great work ahead of the people who live here. That is not the point of this blog. I want to show you the side of Gulu that doesn't always make the papers. The ebbs and flows of everyday life. The joyful singing during prayer services. The 'good morning' greetings of neighbors passing on the street. The happy children. THIS is Gulu for me. A place where hope is alive and people are interested in recovery, not self-pity. And THIS is why you're not going to hear much about trauma here. I believe it undermines the effort to move forward.

And the people here do wish to move forward.

"This is Where You Belong." -or- My Overnight at Lukodi

My Overnight at Lukodi (one really long blog.)



Boys on Veranda with a pair of Adungus 

Sunday morning, I met D'Andrea downstairs at Acholi Ber for breakfast, after which we jumped into the Child Voice van and headed out to Lukodi. I had been invited to church service, and then to stay the night, which was an opportunity I wasn't about to miss. On the way out to the village, D'Andrea and I discussed driving on the Kitgum-Gulu road (which is an adventure no matter who is behind the wheel). Between potholes, people randomly standing in the road, giant mud puddles, and massive rocks, it takes a very particular vehicle to be able to manage. Bodas are actually the very best form of transportation around here because a dirt bike can get over anything. In terms of larger vehicles, the van that the organization currently uses is sturdy enough (once the bar between the tires is removed and special hardcore tires are fitted onto it) or a LandRover also works. That's about it. Of course, the organization is in need of a new vehicle, so if you happen to know anyone sitting on a desire to donate hugely, this is a NEED. 

As the van pulled through the gates and up to the front of the compound, Pastor came over to the side of the van to greet D'Andrea and talk to her about one of the girls who we thought might need to go to the hospital. When he saw me in the passenger seat he came over and basically ripped my door open and then took me up in a giant hug. "MY SISTER!" he cried out. 

After she parked, I found D'Andrea at Matron's hut (Matron is one of the older women of the compound) where they were discussing Matron's daughter (the girl who we thought needed to go to the hospital). It turned out that the girl had had a bone stuck in her throat but that at some point during the night it had been swallowed and all was well. Matron brought me into her hut (I took off my shoes to enter) and as the conversation progressed she smiled and said, "You are welcome here. This is your home, just like America is your home. This is where you belong." 

Once I'd dropped off my bag and switched my sneakers for a more compound friendly pair of borrowed sandals (many thanks to Mama D'Andrea for allowing me their use all weekend) we headed off to prayer service. Because the weather was so gorgeous, the service was held under the mango tree outside. This prayer service is part of the community church and is therefore open to members of the local village (and there were a number of men, women, and children from the village who came in to church).  CVI is hosting a group of InterVarsity Mission Trippers, so the service was a special one. Worship songs, clapping, and a guest pastor (one of the group members) with a message translated from Acholi to English about the meanings of greatness, the honor of servanthood, and the humble nature of Jesus. It was a great message. 

I sat in the front with MaMa D'Andrea, with the children sitting in front of me on a straw mat. I made the mistake of showing one of the little boys (Phillip) that a baby grasshopper had landed on my skirt. He promptly grabbed it, yanked the large back legs off, and handed me back the poor leg-less (and still alive) body. Those who know me know I was mortified...I mean, I don't even kill ants if I can help it, and here we were torturing grasshoppers. I decided that it was a necessary death, however, and promptly handed the body back to the boy. This started a small contest of "let's try to scare the Mzungu woman!" with a half dozen dead grasshoppers of all sizes landing on my skirt at different points throughout the service. I'd throw them back without looking -- which had them stifling giggles. 

After the service, the boys came up to me, "How OLD are YOU?" they said. 

"SOOO old." I said.

We wanted a soccer ball, but since I didn't know where to get one we ended up playing "toss the grasshopper on a string" instead. My friend Phillip ended up being quite squeemish, and every time I tossed it to him he'd run. Then I'd toss to his friend Steven and Steven would catch it. He was VERY brave (or at least  acting it...it was so funny, him throwing back his shoulders and throwing up his head and acting very macho). 

"THIS is a MAN." Another boy (Patrick) told me. It was so funny because Steven is the smallest of all the boys and only nine years old, but he was definitely trying to be big and bad. 

Xylophone Lessons at Lukodi

Suddenly we heard music being played on the veranda. I began walking that direction (now leading a group of about 10 little boys with me). It turned out that two boys were playing the xylophone on the porch. It was so much fun to listen to that I started to dance (very poorly). The kids began to mimic my movements, and soon enough I was surrounded by a circle of children of various ages all pretending not to be dancing with me. Occasionally my "MAN" Steven would come out, put his arms up, and dance with me. He was definitely brave. Whenever I'd try to bring another child to dance with me they'd go running so I spent a lot of time being watched curiously. 

One of the toddlers found his way into the circle and grabbed my hand. He began to dance all around with me, stomping his feet, clapping, and turning in circles. I became aware at some point that I had nearly all of the Lukodi Church children around me, and I really hoped I wasn't upsetting any of the mothers. No one came running over to stop our party though, so I assumed all was well. It wasn't until the next day, when everyone was mentioning how funny it was to see me with the children that I realized that I really had been being watched. 

After I'd danced to the point of exhaustion I ran and grabbed my camera. When I brought it out I was suddenly swarmed with kids who all wanted their picture taken. It went the same way every time -- I'd take a picture, I'd be surrounded by curious kids who wanted to see it, and then the number of kids who wanted their picture taken would get larger as more and more kids tried to crowd into the frame. It was awesome. 

Kids from Lukodi Community Church

At some point in this, MaMa D'Andrea had come out and informed me that lunch was ready in her hut. I excused myself from my kids (at this point there were about 25 all around me) and made my way to the lunch. We were spoiled with beans, cabbage, potatoes, and pocho -- very starch heavy but it was SO appreciated because I was ravenous by the time we ate. Later, MaMa suggested that I could sit in on Luo lessons with Kirsten and Claire (the new CVI interns) so we all made our way to the classroom where Simon Peter Okello taught us using the blackboard and a very soft voice. 

Of course, in the middle of the lesson the rain began again. It started as a drizzle that became a holy firehose. The thunder shook the buildings and vibrated in my ribcage. Looking out the window I couldn't see past the compound fence -- the hills were covered by the heavy rain. Of course, the rain on the tin roof made it impossible to hear anything (as if my hearing weren't bad enough as it was) so we ended up doing much of the lesson through writing on the board. 

After the lesson we found our way to MaMa's hut where we hung out until dinner arrived. The rain continued through the night and the generator wasn't working so we ended up eating dinner by flashlight with our hands (probably one of my favorite memories of this entire trip, believe it or not). Of course, the rain and lack of light made it most interesting to use the restroom...

Latrine at Lukodi

The bathrooms at Lukodi are typical latrines. That is to say that they are outhouses with drops and one stands over a hole to use them. The trouble of it all is that the dark was oppressive, my flashlight was hardly worthy of its name, and I was basically feeling my way through the mud and water and praying I didn't run into any poles. This was hilarious. Note to me: next time -- head lamp. 

After dinner, MaMa, Lowna, Kirsten, Claire, Juliet (one of MaMa's girls) and I sat in MaMa's hut telling funny stories by flashlight and enjoying ginger tea. It was one of the happiest moments I've had in Uganda, and  one of the times I can truly say that I felt like I was being brought into a family. The rain continued to fall on the hut as the night got later. Finally, Lowna and I made our way back to Lowna's hut where Lowna graciously gave me her bed (sleeping on an extra mattress pad on the floor) and pillow for the night. I fell asleep to the sound of lizards rustling in the thatched roof and woke up to the sound of the rooster crowing and the Ugandan sunrise at about 6:30. It was heaven. 

Lowna and I shared a morning cup of coffee followed by a trip to the bead hut where they hang the varnished beads to dry. She cut several strands of beads that were ready to be made into necklaces and handed them to me to help carry out to the compound. Once there, I ran into my tiny dancing partner from Sunday afternoon. He came running for me, grabbing my leg and wrapping himself around me. I sat down on the veranda with him and two others until the Lukodi mothers began herding the toddlers into the nursery. I was guided by one little one on either side of me yanking my hands to pull me into the room and I found myself in the class room on a straw mat with several small children on my lap. Kirsten and Claire were also there along with the older nursery matron who we were assisting. 

Nursery Matron and Baby (How about that SMILE!)

I spent the next three hours lifting children over my head, playing 'head, shoulders,knees, and toes,' and comforting those who were crying. There had to have been thirty kids in the room, all under the age of four, and even with four of us there weren't enough hands to do everything. The best part of it all is that there really isn't a language barrier with little kids. A comforting hand rubbing the back or a hand to hold or a spinning partner don't require words. I had a couple that were attached to me like glue with my hand in one hand and their teddy bears in their other hands. It was chaos. It was craziness. It was amazing. I left the room, after the nursery matron sent the children out to play, covered in baby pee, baby poop, and baby snot. I was exhausted and sore, but I was grinning ear-to-ear. 

I am the luckiest woman alive. 

Some of My Little Buddies

Once I left the nursery, I spent some time with Lowna and one of the missionary girls trying to design some appropriate 'Men's Wear' beads. Then, over lunch, I had the opportunity to bond with Kirsten and Claire (the interns) about their stories, how they got to CVI and what they were interested in doing with the rest of their lives. It was inspiring, and wonderful. 

Women making Beads at Lukodi

Most of the rest of the day was spent wandering about the camp trying to be useful, making small talk, and taking in the gorgeousness that was the day. All too soon it was after four and the staff van was headed back into town. I gave Juliet MaMa's sandals. "You're leaving?" she asked. "Yes. I need to go." I said. "Why?!" she asked with a look that said, 'You live here now. Why would you go?' it was hilarious. 

The ride back to town had me sitting next to the same little girl I'd sat next to on my first trip out to Lukodi (the one who had had malaria). She's feeling much better and she and I played with my bracelet the whole way home. Her mom laughed, "She just loves you. Now you are friends." Friends. Larem. It feels good. 

I ended up taking a boda back from the CVI office to Acholi Ber (which is less than a mile but I was entirely too exhausted to walk) and have to admit that I enjoyed my bath a little too much last night. However, if given the chance I'd spend every day at Child Voice. At this point I'm soaring and entirely filled with joy. I've found a home and a family and a research question all in one trip. 

This is where I belong.